Journey Update!

As of today I weighed in at 86 kgs!! Start August 10th 2011- 94kgs (207lbs) September 1st 2011 - 86 Kgs!! (189lbs) 8Kgs gone! That is 18lbs GONE! I still have a LONG way to go, but this is a great start. I am so pumped that I have managed to lose this much so fast. I am in no way starving myself. I am just eating "Real" food. I walk about 5k a day with Cooper. I am trying to get two walks in on most days, but it doesn't always happen! This past week I worked at the Body Studio for my friend Sam. It has been great having a "Job" to go to, but I do not enjoy the 1.5 hour drive there and back. Family Pictures have come out and they are fantastic. As soon as I pick the ones I want I will post some. I am already proud that I am looking healthier now than in those pictures! Just means I will have to have more family pictures done this summer. So there is my update. I know I said I would do it weekly, but it's been busy. I will try to update more often! xx

Life Changes!

I really need to get better at this!! I need to blog more. I used to blog to help me vent about life or just write down what was happening in our lives. I have decided that it is time to start using this more.

Last week I started a new life style. I have finally decided to battle the bulge! I am on a mission to be a physically new person. I am on a mission to lose around 65lbs. This sounds like an ENORMOUS amount, it's because it is. I need to finally take my weight gain seriously. After having Cooper I reached the heaviest I have ever been in my life! What a scary feeling to know that I tipped the scales at 207 lbs. Even writing that number makes me sick to my stomach. A healthy weight for my height is 147 lbs. I don't remember the last time I was ever that small. This is for no one else, but me. I need to be held accountable for all the coke I used to drink... Every twix I consumed in the 9 months of pregnancy. ::sigh:: this will not be an easy journey... but a journey none the less. I have a goal to have lost at least 40lbs by Cooper's first birthday ( Dec 5th) I know this is a HUGE number to reach in 4 months but hopefully with hard work and heathy eating it will happen. I am tired of being the fat friend. I am tired of being a fat wife. I have struggled with my weight for over 15 years now.

I have just become to complacent in my bad habits. ie. not eating breakfast, huge portions, fast food multiple times a week, sweet, and LOTS of Coke.

Cooper is almost 9 months old now and it is time to stop using " Having a Baby" as an excuse.

So goodbye old me. I am stoked to see where my new me will take me. I am counting calories and exercising everyday. I am now into my 2nd week of this new live and loving it. Don't get me wrong- I would love to have a twix and a coke, but I will be that much closer to my goals if I just grab an apple. I want Cooper to have a "fit" mom. He deserves a great role model. I want to be that for him.

Week one-
Start weight 207 End weight 196.2

- 11lbs What a great start to my week!

I will try to update each week to show my progress!


Here is my "Before Picture" taken on Saturday August 20th 2011

Last post was in 2009??!?!

Where the hell did I go? I can't believe its been that long since I have written ANYTHING.... How do I make up for the year of 2010??

Here is the Highlight reel!

January 2010-

Decided it was time to move on from our farm

Feb- Bought a 1300 acre farm and decided 850 cows to milk would be a great idea. Kev and Mac got married and were expecting
March- After numerous trips to the doctor for a sore tummy I am diagnosed with a stress ulcer.
April- April 7th, I found out my stress ulcer is infact not an ulcer but a beautiful baby growing!!!! (OMG!!!!)
Sage had to be put to sleep just a few days later :(
May- I headed back to the US after packing our house to be in Jean's wedding!
June- Jean's Wedding, Found out we were expecting a baby boy, Brendan and I headed off the Europe and the UK to see friends.
July- Kev and Mac Welcome baby Kaylee
August- Felt big kicks from the baby boy growing in my belly.
Sep-Nov Spent every waking moment remodeling our house
December- December 5th we welcomed the most BEAUTIFUL baby boy into our lives. His Name is Cooper James Saunders.

There you have it- The highlights of my 2010. I will try to keep this Blog updated better, but since no one really reads it- it's not too much pressure :)

Merry Christmas and all that jazz...

Wow it has been so long since I have posted anything. The pas 4 months almost killed me. No really I thought I was going to die of exhaustion. I am happy to report I made it though my Fall 09 semester with straight "A's" and 18 units thankyouverymuch! I actually felt very smart ha ha. It was a long road and at time when I wanted to give up I just kept on pushing through. I am sure I could go on about how amazing it feels to be back home but that is pointless. I am back in New Zealand and yes it is an amazing country and I missed my husband terribly, but I also miss America at this time of year.

This has been one of the crappiest years on record for me and I will be sooooooo grateful when Jan 1 2010 hit. 2009 was a year of harsh realities and true meanings. I lost myself in 09. I fell hard and had to get back on my knees and pray about what I was doing in life. I had to pray about what was important to me. 09 brought some amazing new friends and babies and engagements and weddings. 2009 also brough more tears and anger and pain, that really is not necessary.

On to bigger and better I say. Here is to a new year. A new start. Another 365 days to climb mountain and fall into valleys. 2010 will be a year to work on being a good person. Being a person who is loving and understanding. 2010 is going to be a big year for me and my family. I can feel it. We really need it.

From my family to yours, May you have a very prosperous new year.

XOX

What the hell is wrong with people.

This week has by far been one of the most challenging I have ever had with friends. I am so pissed off. I have one friend who has become a flake.. I have one friend who can't handle the truth of action vs. consequences.. I have another friend who has managed to get himself in a predicament that is hard to understand or being to offer support to.

Maybe I am tired and stress is getting to me with school, but seriously I can't stand it! Is it really that hard to be a good friend to people? I never seem to have a problem being there when im needed or wanted. I am tired of putting my everything out there for my friends and getting NOTHING BACK.


forget it... not even worth it tonight.

Back to School Fool...

Well.. almost two weeks completed in my "Let's go back to school" plan... WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?!?
Ok, well I know what I was thinking, but it doesn't make it easier. I thought it would be a breeze. I am only taking 18 units but mercy me... It feels like 28! I don't even think when I took 28 at Fresno State I felt this overwhelmed. All six classes are the same and it makes it hard for me to decipher asses from elbows at this point. I am taking all Child Development classes with hopes of opening my own day care or preschool in the near future. Tomorrow is Friday and I only have one class, Thank JESUS!!

I hope to update this blog with all of the ridiculous things I am required to do and the silly people in my class
(We are talking BC here) :) Until then... Bring on Labor day weekend!!!!

Missing my other half.

It has been 16 days since I left my other half. 16 days ago I was in another country, in another season, in another world. I won't get to hug my other half for another 104 days. When I thought of four months I thought of the great parts of being in the US for longer than just a 2 week visit. 104 days left. I am missing him. I know I came here with a purpose. I came here to fulfill my dreams, but sometimes it's the dreams that you make together that matter most. 104 days.

I am sure once school starts it will be better. I have a lot on my mind and well it takes it's toll after awhile. Hence the posting at 1am. 104 days.




Miss you.