Monday, December 28, 2009
Merry Christmas and all that jazz...
This has been one of the crappiest years on record for me and I will be sooooooo grateful when Jan 1 2010 hit. 2009 was a year of harsh realities and true meanings. I lost myself in 09. I fell hard and had to get back on my knees and pray about what I was doing in life. I had to pray about what was important to me. 09 brought some amazing new friends and babies and engagements and weddings. 2009 also brough more tears and anger and pain, that really is not necessary.
On to bigger and better I say. Here is to a new year. A new start. Another 365 days to climb mountain and fall into valleys. 2010 will be a year to work on being a good person. Being a person who is loving and understanding. 2010 is going to be a big year for me and my family. I can feel it. We really need it.
From my family to yours, May you have a very prosperous new year.
XOX
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
What the hell is wrong with people.
Maybe I am tired and stress is getting to me with school, but seriously I can't stand it! Is it really that hard to be a good friend to people? I never seem to have a problem being there when im needed or wanted. I am tired of putting my everything out there for my friends and getting NOTHING BACK.
forget it... not even worth it tonight.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Back to School Fool...
Ok, well I know what I was thinking, but it doesn't make it easier. I thought it would be a breeze. I am only taking 18 units but mercy me... It feels like 28! I don't even think when I took 28 at Fresno State I felt this overwhelmed. All six classes are the same and it makes it hard for me to decipher asses from elbows at this point. I am taking all Child Development classes with hopes of opening my own day care or preschool in the near future. Tomorrow is Friday and I only have one class, Thank JESUS!!
I hope to update this blog with all of the ridiculous things I am required to do and the silly people in my class
(We are talking BC here) :) Until then... Bring on Labor day weekend!!!!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Missing my other half.
I am sure once school starts it will be better. I have a lot on my mind and well it takes it's toll after awhile. Hence the posting at 1am. 104 days.
Miss you.
Monday, July 27, 2009
CAKE!!!!!!!!!
First my buddy Brian posted on his facebook about the most amazing cake he came across!
http://www.playinghouseblog.com/2009/07/rainbow-cake.html
Wonderful! I am going to have to try that recipe!!
Second! I have a friend who is expecting a baby boy soon and I wanted to make a special baby gift for her. I decided to make a baby diaper cake. I have never attempted one so I didn't know how it would come out. None of my friends here have ever heard of a Diaper Cake. SOOO I thought I would post pictures of my creation!!! YAY! Enjoy!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Thirsty Thursday!
It is that time of year again... TIME FOR BABIES!!!! Calving is well under way and there is nothing cuter than baby calves. Enjoy the pictures from today. Your welcome.
This is Kodi... I named her.. she belongs to me now :)
Aries-
Today is the first day of Aries new life, created by Aries. Patient Aries has a dream coming true right in front of you; the opportunity to design a life that works for you. Confidence comes from believing in yourself and you helped make this one come true.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Wordless Wednesday!
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
The 3 D's I hate...
My life this past month has been full of death, dying, and darkness. My Dad's uncle Rob passed away unexpectedly last week and we had his funeral this weekend. My cousin Michelle lost one of her friend's from injuries sustained from a car accident in May. Her funeral was today. I watched the Michael Jackson memorial last week. I read the blogs of people who are grieving for family members they have lost. I know that no one likes death. It is a part of life that we have to deal with. I just seem to have a very
irrational fear of death. I can't even watch Tv where there is death involved. Brendan was watching some program on discovery and I begged him to change the channel because I just couldn't handle it. I lay awake at night thinking about things I can't change. I will just wind myself up thinking about death till I get to the point of tears. I am ridiculous I know.
I know that I have always been taught about heaven and how we get to heaven. I Just have a hard time accepting life going on with out someone. I think about Brendan or I never knowing when our time might end. I think about not knowing how much time I have with those I love.
See... Ridiculous.
that is death. Dying on the other hand is slow normally. I lost my best friend to cancer when I was 14. It was 6 months of hell for Mandy. She had cancer and I have never been the same since.
Death, Dying, and Darkness all go hand in hand. and I hate it. ( yes I am afraid of the dark) I think it is more that I am afraid of the unknown. I am afraid of what I cannot see or comprehend. either that or I am just a chicken.
I wish I could have all those back in my life I have lost. I wish I knew when one of my goodbye's would be the last. It is sad. I am not good at handling sadness. uggggg... it's time for bed.
Maybe one day I will come to terms with life and death. At this point in my life, I am always devastated, I always feel cheated and shattered.
Xxo
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Happy 4th of July!
The only reason we get to celebrate this amazing holiday is because of the wonderful service members who fight for our country and keep the USA safe. So Thank you too all past, present, and future members of the US military. Happy Independence Day America!!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
" Woah, did she just write that??"
Heather pours her heart and soul out to her blog. Yesterday she wrote a very honest blog about how upset she is. Some random reader pretty much told her to suck it up and quit bitching. Now, I am not kidding when I mean this woman left a comment that would shatter a woman's heart even if she hadn't lost a baby. It broke my heart to even see such a cruel comment. Heather and her husband Mike are going through a parents worst nightmare and someone has the audacity to tell them that their personal thoughts are stupid???? No way! needless to say there was plenty of back up. This was by far the best reply left to the horrible commenter.
Kelly,
Please do the world a favor and go **** yourself. If you don’t want to read the blog anymore, just stop coming here. There was no need to exacerbate some one else’s pain with that kind of thoughtless, heartless and vicious comment.
What the **** should she write about? Rainbows, puppies and kittens. Apparently you don’t know that writing IS therapy, you cock-juggling thundercunt. (sorry I couldn't edit the best part lol)
I am so sick of people taking advantage of the anonymity of the internet to be so damn cruel to others. Grow a pair, Kelly and come tell someone that shit to their face.
WOW! Now I am not trying to condone internet hate out there, but that comment not only sparked a fire on the blog site but this response above had everyone in fits of laughter. Amazing. I am always amazing at the power of words. What we can express with words just makes living that much better. I pray for Heather and Mike. I don't know them, I probably will never "know" them. I do pray for them though.
Be grateful for all you have in life. You will never ever know what tomorrow will bring.
Inspirational Quote of the Day:
“Smile at each other,
smile at your wife, smile at your husband, smile at your children, smile at each other -- it doesn't matter who it is -- and that will help you to grow up in greater love for each other.”
Mother Teresa
Random fact of the day:
koala:
Koalas have twin thumbs
A Koala also has finger prints that are almost identical to ours
Monday, June 29, 2009
2,299 miles.
This Trip was supposed to be two days. We were to travel to the ski slopes (3 hours from our house) spend the night and return the following night. I had one set of good clothes for dinner and my ski clothes and toiletries. That was it. I am in no way joking. So at 5am we head for the said ski slopes arrive around 9am after stopping for breakfast. We get our tickets and head up the mountain only to find that the "Amazing" snow the website was claiming was a sham. A total PR stunt. the snow was Ice. I don't mean patches of Ice I mean CHUNKS of ice...
Needless to say we left after the first run. We knew we still had two days to do what we wanted so we thought we would head another 4 hours south to Wellington, The New Zealand Capital. About 12 hours later we are in the South Island of New Zealand courtesy of a 3 hour ferry ride between the cook straight. At midnight we were lucky enough to find someone who would open up and let us have a room. We were in Kaikoura. I have no idea what the place looks like at this point I just wanted to sleep.
We woke up the next morning and had no idea what we were doing. Kaikoura is known for the wildlife in the area such as whales, dolphins, and seals... So seals it was! We headed over to explore the coast line.
So somehow we ended up deciding to travel down the west coast and make our way to Queenstown ( The Snow Capital of NZ) Two days of exploring we saw a lot of just nothing but farm land and sheep... we went a whole day without cell service. We also got to see two amazing glaciers the Franz Josef and the Fox Glacier.
after we made it to Queenstown we had an amazing time snowboarding. That was until I heard about the Death of Farrah and Michael. Very, Very sad. I grew up listening to Michael like everyone else. I loved his music. Everything from the Jackson 5 to his last album Invincible
Rest in Peace to the man who helped me fall in love with music... I will never stop dancing.
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone..."
in 2,299 miles your life can change. There is no doubt about it. I will never be the person I was 2,299 miles ago, might not be a bad thing. The world is beautiful, go explore.
Xox- J
Monday, June 15, 2009
A good book is all you ever need.
of June 15th, 2009
"Optimism: A cheerful frame of mind that enables
a tea kettle to sing though in hot water up to its nose."
Author Unknown
Friday, June 12, 2009
4 days 4 books.
Friday, June 5, 2009
Woah! When did winter arrive???
- Amazing Snowboarding when everyone in America is sweltering
- There are no cows milking on our farm
- I have the MOST amazing heat blanket on our bed.
Forget the health food. I need all the preservatives I can get.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst, for they are sticking to their diets.
Life is an endless struggle full of frustrations and challenges, but eventually you find a hairstylist you like.
You're getting old when you get the same sensation from a rocking chair that you once got from a roller coaster.Perhaps you know why women over fifty don't have babies; they would put them down somewhere and forget where they left them.
One of life's mysteries is how a two pound box of candy can make you gain five pounds.
God put me on earth to accomplish a certain number of things. Right now I am so far behind, I will live forever.
It's frustrating when you know all the answers, but nobody bothers to ask you the questions.
If you can remain calm, you just don't have all the facts. Stress reducer; Put a bag on your head. Mark it "closed for remodeling". *Caution - leave air holes.
I finally got my head together, and my body fell apart.
There cannot be a crisis this week; my schedule is already full.